Split Decision: A Romance by Brooke St. James

Author:Brooke St. James [St. James, Brooke]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Parkside Press
Published: 2021-09-18T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter 12

Stevie Charles

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Two weeks later

I was undone.

On paper, my life was wonderful. Technically, things were the most amazing they had ever been. But I was falling apart.

During the last month, I lived every girl's fairytale. I fell head-over-heels in love with one of the most successful singers in the world, and I was at the other side of it all as the new owner of my own house and greenhouse. The backyard had quickly been transformed with a 20x30 building that would soon be home to all of my tropical plants. I had been in the house for a week, but the greenhouse had been under construction until today.

So, you might ask why I was undone emotionally.

Why was I unable to stop crying?

I wished I had the answer.

My life had taken a remarkably good turn, and yet I felt inexplicably sad and desperate. Maybe it was because the events were so unexpected and undeserved that I was afraid I'd lose it all.

The charity concert was tomorrow night, and David would leave the following day. That ball would be my big Cinderella moment, and then what? I would hand in my glass slippers and David would go back to Texas. Would the house disappear with him? Was all this a big trick? That had to be why I was so emotional… David was leaving L.A.

I had desperate, delirious feelings that afternoon. I didn't feel well, and I thought it might be anxiety, but it sure felt physical. David had been with his brother and the band all day, but I was supposed to pick him up at the hotel tonight so that we could hang out. We were supposed to come back here so that he could see the greenhouse now that the lights were in.

But I didn't feel up to it.

My symptoms were physical now. The house and greenhouse were officially mine, and the happiness somehow morphed into fear and sadness that grew over the course of the afternoon and made me feel sick. In those difficult moments, I came around to thinking that I needed to give the house back. There was just no way I could stay here. David was going to be gone in two days, and then I'd just have a new house that I had done nothing to deserve. This place was way out of my league, and I couldn't accept it.

I cried and cried as I came to that realization. How had I gotten so swept off my feet that I let this happen? How had I accepted such a gift?

I wished I knew what caused feelings, or what made me get set off on this negative tangent, but either way, I had fallen into a pit of darkness emotionally and I felt physically ill with it.

I knew I had to call David. He would be expecting me to pick him up at 7pm, and I didn't feel up to going. My face was puffy and hot. My whole head was hot. My nose was stopped up, and I felt like I had been on a nightmare rollercoaster of emotions.

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